You have to stop looking for someone else to save you. Only you can do that for yourself.

You wanted him dead. And your wish is my command.

Could I go back and live at Mum and Dad’s at the age of twenty-six?

Get to the bloody point!’ She.

He’s the anchor to my boat and I worry that I will float out to sea, directionless, without him.

[T]he chief goal of Jungian psychology: how to be responsibly alive to all aspects of one's self without restriction.

Who knows how things happen when one is on a quest or writing a book? It is as if one searches and searches and then, if one can move past the ego's demands and is lucky, sometimes a space opens where books seem to fall open in one's lap and things and people appear, as if magically, to help. Some call it synchronicity or being in the flow; I find it to be a blessed, though often short-lived, state of grace for which I am deeply grateful.