I have to resign, ... I've cried for days and days over this. I'm just so frustrated. I just want it all to be done with and get this over with.

I've tried so hard to do things the right way,

To be honest, ... there is no excuse for stupidity, for not double-checking the rules.

I feel so bad, ... I didn't shoot from a truck; I didn't knowingly do anything that was illegal. This is embarrassing.